I have always marveled at those people who choose a word for their year. They’ll end one year by picking a word they want the theme of the new year to be, or they’ll pick a word of significance, maybe something God is teaching them or leading them to. I can never do that. My year always ends up being vastly different at the end of the year than when it started. This year, however, I feel God leading me towards peace.

I struggle with anxiety a lot. It’s like a roller coaster for me; some seasons in my life are consumed by anxiety and some seasons feel like calm waters. This season of my life goes in and out, but I find myself anxious more and more. I know that I can’t do life alone, but sometimes I forget that I can’t beat anxiety alone. I can only do it with God through His peace. I was reminded of this scripture this week:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

~Phillipians 4:6-7

The peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds. I need that. I need the peace of God to guard my heart and my mind. How do I get that? By talking to God. By letting my requests be known to Him in prayer. He already knows what I want and what I need. He knows when I am anxious, and He knows what to do.

Sometimes, I feel like I am too sensitive for this world. I feel too much, too strongly. Things hurt me and bother me more than they do other people. I feel like my heart wasn’t made for this world, but then, maybe it was. Maybe my heart was made exactly as sensitive as it needed to be. Maybe there is purpose in that.

For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

-Psalm 139:13-16

Today, I am choosing to let God’s peace fill me. I am choosing to put my faith in God, His timing, and His ways instead of in myself, my abilities, and the world and it’s standards. When I do this, I don’t always feel peace crashing over me like a wave. I don’t always feel guarded. I know that I am. I am letting that be enough. I am refusing to let anxiety be the captain of my boat, and instead, let God lead me by still waters.

Do you need peace today? Speak to God. Let your requests be known to Him. Tell Him you are anxious/stressed/mad/sad/whatever. Then trust in Him, because He is faithful, and He will make you a table in the wilderness. May you be able to sing with all of us “it is well with my soul”.

When peace like a river attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
“It is well, it is well with my soul.”

It is well with my soul;
it is well, it is well with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
let this blest assurance control:
that Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
and has shed his own blood for my soul.

It is well with my soul;
it is well, it is well with my soul.

My sin oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
my sin, not in part, but the whole,
is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more;
praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well with my soul;
it is well, it is well with my soul.

O Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
the clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
the trump shall resound and the Lord shall descend;
even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul;
it is well, it is well with my soul.

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